Monday, October 21, 2013

This is Four

The photo is grainy because this ridiculous activity was occurring in the pitch black of night....

Anyone who loves their kids knows that once you start talking about them, it's hard to stop.  I am so proud of our little boy.  He is an awesome guy with a HUGE heart and he sure loves his mommy.   Being his dad makes me pay a little more attention to who I am supposed to be, since he constantly asks questions like, "If God is everywhere but God is nowhere, is God just pretend?"  And "What comes after outer space?"



Being his dad has made me more active and vigilant about things like the natural resources I'll leave him one day, as well as the Constitutional rights I'll leave him with (I know, my politics are bizarre).   Before fatherhood, I was an active volunteer for various causes and organizations.  Common sense would have it that I'd spend less time doing that stuff now, because I simply have less time.  Certainly, there are evening chapter meetings and cocktail fundraisers that I miss in more ways than one, but fatherhood has lit a fire of urgency under me.  I'm realizing that my life, if I'm lucky, is nearly half gone.

"What will I leave?" has become for me an inspiring call to return simultaneously to activism, punk rock, environmentalism, and spiritual study.   Time to galvanize, figure it out, and get things done.





2 comments:

Mark Coleman said...

Punk rock?

Kirk River Mud said...

This is quickly going to turn into a six-beer conversation. From your question, I'm guessing your vision of punk rock (Sid Vicious, spoiled kids with annoying looking piercings) is very different from mine.

For those of us who grew up punk rock, we developed a sense of DIY that wasn't popular then (the 1980s). If government and corporations say something is impossible and you believe it's worth doing, then you get off your ass and go do it. Because no one else will or can or is willing to put their head, money, or reputation on the line to make it happen.

By "punk rock" I mean that I sense the imperative to make things happen and not just let things happen to me. I've always been that way to an extent, but having a child in general, and maybe a son in particular, has amped up that feeling within me. The government is not going to look out for what's best for him. Nor is the Church. Nor are corporations. Nor is the television. Everyone is selling something, which doesn't mean what they're selling isn't valuable, but it means I have to be diligent and difficult and aware to make sure I am in charge of what happens to the extent a person can be. Not waiting for the government to reward me, or corporations to give me a discount for doing the right thing, or waiting to do the right thing until a cute picture gets 1000 "likes" on social media. Just doing it.

That's what I mean by punk rock. :)

I'm glad somebody asked! Thanks Mark.