|The photo is grainy because this ridiculous activity was occurring in the pitch black of night....|
Anyone who loves their kids knows that once you start talking about them, it's hard to stop. I am so proud of our little boy. He is an awesome guy with a HUGE heart and he sure loves his mommy. Being his dad makes me pay a little more attention to who I am supposed to be, since he constantly asks questions like, "If God is everywhere but God is nowhere, is God just pretend?" And "What comes after outer space?"
Being his dad has made me more active and vigilant about things like the natural resources I'll leave him one day, as well as the Constitutional rights I'll leave him with (I know, my politics are bizarre). Before fatherhood, I was an active volunteer for various causes and organizations. Common sense would have it that I'd spend less time doing that stuff now, because I simply have less time. Certainly, there are evening chapter meetings and cocktail fundraisers that I miss in more ways than one, but fatherhood has lit a fire of urgency under me. I'm realizing that my life, if I'm lucky, is nearly half gone.
"What will I leave?" has become for me an inspiring call to return simultaneously to activism, punk rock, environmentalism, and spiritual study. Time to galvanize, figure it out, and get things done.